I know this isn't the sexiest description but trying to find comfort in your build is something every gainer can relate to at some level. and lifting sometimes, but mostly eating. I was tired of feeling trapped or afraid, worried about what people would think of me or my weight. I was plagued with anxiety, body dysmorphia, and depression, a lot of it stemming from not feeling at home in my body but too insecure to just run with gaining and growing into the guy I wanted to be.Īdmittedly it wasn't until the pandemic that I stopped caring so much and just wanted to let go. It's the usual early picture I trot out because it's the oldest, thinnest one I've got and honestly I haven't been the fastest or most consistent gainer out there but I meant well. I'm redoing my monthly progress/comparison thread because I finally figured out my camera settings and lighting and stuff but I'm gonna start with the very beginning: November 2010, 18 years old, 150ish pounds.